Look with Your Heart

 

For those who are confused :))

 

 

Thanks Eric for sharing this with me!

认真

 

也许很多人会不认同

 

但是有时候

 

 

何必太认真

 

生活总要开心过

离别的季节

不知不觉距离我最后一次穿校服的日子已经将近两年

考试原来不止是考试

还是Farewell的一种形式

莫名其妙开始想念我的同学们了

Little thought about happiness

Sometimes people tell me how miserable they are feeling about life, and I always get frustrated for not being able to find appropriate words to comfort them.

We all face similar problems, about having not enough time, about not meeting our own expectations, about not knowing who we want to be, about complicated relationships and etc.

And I start to worry. Am I happy because I have looked beyond all these imperfections in life? Or am I not taking life seriously at all?

如果还剩下一个星期的寿命

与朋友闲聊 突然想起一个问题

如果你还剩下一个星期的寿命，你会做什么？

一个朋友说 要去欧洲旅行
我说想探望所有过去帮过我陪伴过我的人
另一个朋友说：“想做的事太多，一星期太少了，没有答案。”
其他人  没有回答


有人说：“这个问题不合逻辑”

我的第一反应 维护着说自己问的问题当然符合逻辑
没有人知道下一秒会发生什么事
但是大家总有很多事情想做
却总认为还有时间

所以我们在浏览Facebook, 在图书馆解题，在聊谁与谁的绯闻


偶尔会听人家说
要"live every day as if it were your last"
人生才不会有遗憾

其实我认同


但是也清楚
我那个朋友不会明天就跑去欧洲（虽然有钱有护照有能力）
我也不会现在打电话约哪个小学同学见面
有很多事要做的那个朋友 我还会会看见他对着电脑赶project

因为我们最担心的 不是下个星期会死掉
而是如果下个星期没有死掉
’live every day as if it were your last' 的代价太大



所以对于我们这个年龄的普通人而言
那个问题
确实不合逻辑



也许
尽力做好手上的每一件小小的事
记得打电话回家
用心对待身边的人
认真写好明天要交的实验报告

就足够了吧

Doing great!

It has been a while since I last blogged a proper post. Life's been way too happening, learning and experiencing new adventures almost every single day.

Just completed a 10km marathon today. I would really like to thank Tian Chuin for asking me to sign up, though I only made up my mind during the third time he asked. It was awesome! I set a target for myself, to run continuosly for 5km before I could start walking. I missed the 4km and 5km signboards and was really surprised realising that I have ran 6km.
And I continued.
So, I jog non-stop for the whole 10km. Not a very remarkable achievement to some people, but I really did not expect myself to go so far (I jog for at most 4km usually). Sorry for being narcissist, but was really proud of myself as I crossed the finish line. =P

 
Not sure how I did it. But I am really thankful for everyone who ever said a 'Jiayou' to me.


Having a little bit more time to catch up with studies nowadays. Not putting too much expectations on my final grades, as I have not been studying for at leasr half of the semester. It is tiring having to catch up with so much work last minute, but I truly enjoyed what I did for my CCAs.


For certain reasons, I am listening to Backstreet Boys instead of Fish Leong and watching Wong Fu productions instead of Kang Xi Lai Le. Not very sure whether I would regret putting myself into this. But at worst, it would turn out to be a lesson learnt.


I understand why people say the years in university is the best period of time in life!

That was the first time, my phone received an incoming call from your number.


All the best for Biochemistry CA3! =)

Great day

Had a great time catchiing up with an old friend today.
We haven't been seeing each other for quite a long period of time, and I am really glad that we can always be ourselves in front of each other.

Just a simple 'How's school today?' totally made my day! =)

美丽的梦/ Halloween

一切就像经历了一场梦一样

一个陌生人的突然出现

竟然能占据我生活的这么一大部分

也就像一场梦一样

终于是时候苏醒

Halloween 很成功，至少对我而言是这样的

过程很累很忙还有一点委屈

但想起当天所有的committee members 一到场就会自动积极帮忙

现在看着照片能感受到大家当时的欢乐

真的觉得

为了这活动跑东跑西

放下学业

甚至忽略一些朋友
 

我不后悔
 

真的很感激·

每一个

为Halloween做过任何大大小小付出的人

很感激

每一句

来自朋友的‘加油’

那时

 

有一段日子

大家听同一首当时流行的歌

追着同一部电影

 

那时的大家

今天过着各自生活

今天的身边人

那时还不认识

 

这是一首

那时听了又听

听了又听

的歌

 

天高地厚 - 信

 

 

想看到 陪我到最后谁是朋友

你是我最期待的那一个

 

一点领悟

是生活确实很累还是人太懒散？


每天每天跟很多不同的人说话，但也一直都是自己一个人。常常觉得被误会很委屈，可是也确实没必要跟谁解释自己。生活常常给我惊喜，偶尔一些惊吓，需要时间平复心情再去解决问题。与人共事从来都是一项学不完的技能，就算那个应该与你站在同一阵线的人都只管自己能如何表现，也不能责怪谁什么。

一连串的考试，同系的同学在说还没读完该读的，我却不知道“读完”是什么样的概念。听歌发呆一整个上午，还不知道自己人生要追求什么，但至少知道了自己不要什么。从来注重成绩只是因为考不好不知如何向人交代，但自己的人生从来只需向自己交代。


我的生活，我的步伐。

我是猪

已经很努力不让别人看见自己疲倦的样子
但有时还是会被发现


有多累？
就是去了个dinner之后
回到房间将近两小时之后
连妆都还没卸
衣服也没换


我想要有个人

帮我卸妆
刷牙
擦保湿霜
吹头发
按摩脚



其实每个人的身体里面
都住着一只猪

18:0

我想我会一辈子记得18比0这个结果
今天两场比赛
第一场9比0，我们输
第二场9比0，也是我们输


安慰的话听了很多
什么分数其实很接近


但18比0是个事实
教我如何面对

Life - sum of little surprises

Life is full of little surprises.

I often think of giving up, on what I am doing, because there are simply too many things to do. I do not see where I am going by doing all these.

But little surprises appear every now and then. They keep me going. =)


Give others some encouragement and motivation. It keeps them going!

Busy busy life

原来生活可以这么忙
e-learning week变成cca meeting week
只看了少过一个chapter的notes!

自己的选择不要后悔
成绩退步就退步

Huaiting! =)

A little celebration

Thank you mates!

Feel really blessed to have both of you by my side

through the long nights of researching and typing.

ES1531 was expected to be a nightmare,

but you guys made it a great memory!

美丽的早晨

喜欢早上起来
慢条斯理地吃着早餐
听youtube 任何几首歌
发几下呆
想些事情

不抱任何期望开始我的一天

开始习惯手机Wifi只开一下子
信息发达
每个人的手机都24小时不停地想不停地震


我还是喜欢
缓慢的步伐
安静的生活

云和树

你是云 我是树
我们可以编织出一幅美丽的画


但是我忘了你是云
千变万化
看得见 摸不着 到不了

你偶尔变成雨
给我滋润

但你又流向河流向海
回到蓝天 千变万化


只能期待下一次下雨

期望

原来失望能让人那么难受

"Do not blame people for disappointing you, blame yourself for expecting too much. "

也许确实是我期望得太多

因为期望即使我不在 大家还留有一点小小的心意
所以我失望
因为期望同学可以一起努力 而不是担心别人会比自己多学一些
所以我失望
因为期望大家合作可以不求功名
所以我失望
因为期望有人会在我需要有人倾听的时候 不顾一切说句OK
所以我失望
因为期望朋友互相祝福 而不是妒忌
所以我失望


以前的我啊
会觉得为了朋友啊感情啊这些事而难过
是很幼稚的事情

但是人不在乎与人之间的事
岂不是没心没肺了

不过偶尔没心没肺也许舒服一点


K it's really my fault for expecting too much huh..

Hmm..unexpected

Sometimes you do not know how to respond to the situation and so you say ok.
And then you regret that 'ok!' from your mouth.

An interesting start of a new semester. Everything turns out so different from what I expected. Time for me to learn to adapt quickly to unexpected changes.
And as promised, I will continue to (work towards to) be a kind person.

Continue to take me for granted and you'll know it when shit happens to you.

Thanks for everything.

Not aa good Chem Eng student

Then I start my life of stoning through lectures again.


Chew Zhi Xin will be a chemical engineer? Seriously?

Imagining myself wearing those construction helmet walking around oil field, just makes me lose all the motivation to study. :(

Academic Stuff

I still like what I am learning this semester so far.
Doing some talking for Communicating Engineering is fine for me. I'm just hoping that my groupmates are easy-going people.
I am worried for Biochemistry, as I only learnt Biology up to PMR level :( But it's Biochem, not Bio. So now we are only dealing with polar/non-polar kinda thing and I do like Biology. So yeah, B+ is good enough as long as I am happy.
Fluid mechanics and Themodynamics, hmm...I still don't know what is going on, but will find out soon (hopefully)!
Lastly, my beloved Organic Chem! Hope that I have not returned all the organic chem stuff to Ms Lim and Mr ?? (opps...forgot his name, but most of my organic chem knowledge was taught by him).

I am staying at Welfare and quitting or most probably putting much less focus on Chinese Debate. Pulling out from Dun Bian had showed the team my attitude I guess. I believe they are understanding people. :)

最初的梦想

“如果骄傲没被现实大海

冷冷拍下

又怎会懂得 要多努力

才走的到远方”

启程了

继续走我那条

不知道梦想在哪里的路

默默地

妈妈送我上火车
我默默地坐了六个小时  回去现实
默默地坐在火车站  看人来人往
默默地坐在的士上  看熟悉又陌生的风景
默默地站在宿舍外  等着不确定
默默地看他见我独自一人  却跟我说再见
默默地离开宿舍  去只有我的地方
默默地喝着Green Tea Latte  想我为何总是默默地


也自在


5/7/2013

《见与不见》

看戏很少会觉得感动
今天下午看《宫》
就喜欢上了胤禛写给晴川的一封信

还以为那个皇帝竟然那么有才情
上网搜索才发现原来是一个叫仓央嘉措的达赖喇嘛写的
诗名为《见与不见》



还是觉得很美
与大家分享


“你见或者不见我，我就在那里不悲不喜；
你年或者不念我，情就在那里不来不去；
你爱或者不爱我，爱就在那里不增不减；
你跟或者不跟我，我的手就在你手里不舍不弃；
来到我的怀里，或者，让我住进你的心里；
漠然相爱，寂静欢喜”

对话

有时候假期还真的会让人变得有点神经质

就会有些人

突然间想起了很久很久以前某些人

然后去Facebook 找回之前的对话

重新读一次

就为了看看谁在乎对方多一点

自己赢了的话

还会自己暗爽

为了那很久很久以前的人

突然有点想念那个没有智能手机的年代

简讯是一封一封打开来看的

在回复之前

会记得人家上一封写了什么

有一天

手机说信箱已满的时候

会小心的一封一封删

但某些信息

还是会一直留着

但也总有一天

会遇见新的手机

然后过去的信息不再重要

我现在的手机里

找不到

让我小心翼翼珍惜的什么

Luck

I am unreasonably lucky sometimes.
Must have been some really charitable person in my past life.


Thank you, my past life! =)

半天 一本书

想到明天
就觉得害怕

家里少了聊天的伴
我无意间点开龙应台的 《女子与小人》
这半天总算过了去


还真要谢谢礼扬
借我那本《目送》



还是那句话
我没什么文学修养
不敢在这里对她的文章发表什么看法


有兴趣的
就去看吧

教我如何面对

其实我喜欢A很久了
我曾为他奋斗
为他笑为他哭
但今天
他给不了我归属感


B 教会我很多事情
但我清楚
我只是想从他身上得到些什么好处
我不为他笑 也不为他哭
可今天放手
像是白费了过去的付出


C 应该是我生活的重心
我却总是为了 A和B
甚至是 D 、E、F
把他放在最后
但我清楚
没了C
我什么都不是


D 给我家的感觉
却经常让我失望懊恼
若我离开
他会不怨我？


我从小跟 E 一同长大
他无理的闹
虽然不喜欢
但我偶尔可以理解 偶尔觉得同情
更多的是无奈


我很希望了解F
没有他的日子
我期盼能遇见他
知道他即将出现
我却又总习惯逃离



每晚睡前
A B C D E 和 F 总在我脑里
不停地转
转个不停


这是因为长大了吗？

那再长更大一点
还会有 G H I 咯？

女人

为何你总喜欢嫉妒？

在这个心情烦躁的早晨

懂得怎么让我开心的人还在

谢谢

真真实实的习惯了没有你的生活

就像你

在没有我的日子

也过得舒畅

修身养性

若关心与多管闲事是同等概念
若心中依然有着怨恨与怀疑

那我觉得我应该沉默
过自己的生活


修身养性

不再听不再说 A、B、C、D的事
只管我在乎的 E、F 和 G

结婚

昨晚，一个初中同学求婚成功了。

到现在，还没跟他说恭喜，因为，有点难接受。
不是因为女生怀孕了，就只是，男生觉得要结婚了。出动了男生的兄弟好友，然后女生点头了。那我见过的，曾经稚气的脸，笑得很开心。


我一直感觉，电视电影里那些求婚告白单膝下跪戴戒指的情节，是离我们很遥远的事。但是它发生了，在曾经的同学身上。



所以，我的初中同学要结婚了。



不知道从哪里看到过一句话，大概是这样的

“是什么样的心动，才让两个人以一辈子当承诺？”

GE-13

我、Ps还有Sue 到新山的时候是早上十点，Ly 在车站接我们，车上还有Karl 跟Jc.
我们到一件ly所谓的古早味咖啡店，吃久违的Nasi lemak，服务员的喊声在我们头上穿来穿去。六个人围着一张小小的圆桌，挤。我们说，今天真幸福，很有马来西亚feel。

我们到当地某SMK参观，排队投票的人很多，我们在心中各自怀念自己小学、中学的教室、食堂，还有走廊上挂着的句句谚语peribahasa.

我们吃了顿丰盛的鸭饭作午餐，六个人，RM55，平均每人约九令吉，比我们平时在宿舍食堂的一餐还便宜。Ly 在那55下面，写了“换政府”三个字。

我们到gelong patah的辅士小学，但门外贴着禁止非投票者进入。

我们在clock tower 前面拍jump shot，看见马来西亚的天空很大。

我们沿着johor istana的篱笆绕了一圈，地很大，看不见里面是什么。

Ly爸爸带我们去吃晚餐。茶杯浸在滚烫的热水里被端上桌。Sue 说，好久没吃过那么好的晚餐。


回新的路上，看见林吉祥赢了，倪克敏开始时落后，然后也赢了。张念群、郭素沁也明显领先。砂拉越被BN拿下。国会议席20 : 8. 打电话回家，不出所料，DAP的新人，以万多票对五千多票拿下直凉。
回到宿舍已是晚上十点钟。PR守住了槟城雪州吉兰丹。黄德取得胜利，金马仑被BN以80票之差拿下。吡叻看起来是PR领先。开始传来柔佛槟城有人捣乱的消息。安华也赢了，安华女儿也赢。


然后突然， 黄德被宣布输了，廖中莱在文冬胜出。吉打归BN。我们下午到过的辅士小学出现在Facebook 上。有辆车，试图驶入校园，被民众挡着。警员出现，说会处理，然后车驶入了校园。


然后，我开始生气自己的愚昧，竟然会对达成两线制抱有希望。原来我高估了大马人民的力量。怪谁？老师父母不曾告诉我外劳可以投票，不曾告诉我算选票时会停电 (抱歉，已证实，停电事件不存在）。

我对PR的Manifesto 有不认同之处，也对Anwar 有所保留，即使身边同学都对他大力支持。
但BN，你竟然使用这种肮脏的伎俩。凭什么，那些人可以如此明目张胆；又为何，我们竟然无能为力，只能像小孩那样签名企求其他国家大人怜悯？



我还是会，愚昧地相信有希望，相信大马人的力量。因为那是一代又一代的人民，努力捍卫的地方，因为打击恶势力，不是一朝一夕能成就的事。因为我，来自马来西亚。

空空的

最近感觉

空空的

想找些东西弥补缺失的那部分

坐在座位前读书

然后发现MA1506原来是由一坨坨的大便组成的

（原谅我这么说  但真的很恶心）

看电影

不知是电影的问题还是什么

看了  还是感觉空空的

看小说

越看越没意思

太不真实了

玩手机游戏

一直过不了那关

更痛苦

所以决定写些什么

在笔记本上乱写了几句

然后上来这里

每次考试要到的时候

我就会变成个怨妇似的

有一点复杂

一直很想也很需要写一篇

说明我这几天的心情

每次写了又删了

事情很复杂

心情应该也很复杂

所以不管怎么写

从哪开始些

都解释不清楚

所以我一直用力地让自己不去想那些事

真的不懂

是我想太多

还是这确实是人家演的一出戏

表情很逼真

但有些漏洞似乎没有隐藏好

还是只是我想太多？

也许

很多事情

就应该让它模模糊糊地过去

周六上午 - 有风筝与小孩

今天带大家去Marina Barrage 放风筝

原本期待看见一大片的草地

结果原来只是一栋建筑物的rooftop

但偶尔风挺大的

风筝可以飞很高

有很多小朋友都不会放

就一直拉着风筝的线跑

当然  风筝没有飞起来

所以大家就会一直要我们这些大哥哥大姐姐

帮他们把风筝高高地举起来

有风的时候

风筝就飞得很高

然后有一个小朋友

自已就可以让风筝飞很高

很厉害

这风筝一开始不知道怎么打了个很复杂的结

我跟Yikai 还有Bernard 花了大半天把结解开

然后它又飞起来了

早上起床的时候还下着雨

还好后来停了

跟小朋友一起放风筝

感觉真的很好

忙了一整个星期

风筝跟小孩

让我看见

快乐很简单

妈妈：”我很幸福“

刚打电话回家

妈突然很有感触似地说

“我很幸福，儿子那么乖，女儿也那么乖，大家都嫉妒我。”

妈说

她拜六晚上十一点的飞机飞韩国

我说，好，那我拜六早上打给你

临挂电话前

妈说了句

“其实我真的很幸福一下的ho”

我不知道怎么回应

应了句，

“嗯啦，幸福就好。“

放下电话

我不知道为什么 就开始哭

我第一次 

听见妈说她很幸福

这个家庭主妇

花了二十几年

把四个孩子教好

然后说

我很幸福

可能她不知道

其实她的四个孩子

也只是希望

他们的妈妈幸福

祝愿

天下的妈妈

都幸福

努力

使自己变得更好

因为希望

可以走在你的旁边

其实很简单

其实大家的要求都不多

只是期望听到身边朋友的一句“加油！” 或 “你很棒！”

一张卡，一枝花

SF 说他很开心

就是这么简单而已

Xj, Jp and Zw

Back during JC times, whenever something happened, whether good or bad, I only had to keep it for one day. I knew everything would be ok when I met Xj, Jp or Zw on the next day and I could share with them. The problems might not be solved but I would feel better simply because they were there.

I miss those times.

突然有个愿望

很希望有一个这样的朋友

没好好复习成绩考不好可以跑去跟他诉苦  他不会心里觉得我活该的朋友

成绩考得好可以在他面前疯狂地又跳又笑  他不会觉得我是在炫耀的朋友

可以跟我一起埋怨说不想读书  但理解我还是会去读的朋友

知道我经常不去上课  但不会因此而断定我不认真的朋友

一个不会去比较 我跟他谁比较优秀的朋友

在我生气难过沮丧的时候陪我做疯狂的事  而不是用高深的道理来告诉我应该冷静的朋友

现在在周围的人都很好  真的

只是突然觉得少了那么一个

可以在他面前什么都不需要顾虑的朋友

No time for everything

I hate it when people tell me to have meetings or go for any events on Saturday mornings.
I have missed 1 BP-mentors outing, 2 mentoring sessions and 1 more session today. The mentors outing fell on the day of Infusion, then during the first two mentoring sessions I was in Penang for the Chinese Debate Competition. And today, my phone ran out of battery in the middle of the night and my alarm did not ring! So when I woke up it was already 9.45am. Really felt like killing myself this morning.

I do not know how to make a choice. Meeting the kids on Saturday mornings is the only time when I feel that the world is simple, but I always prioritise other things above BP-mentoring, because they give me more sense of achievements? I don't know.

Next week I am skipping another session again, for the Malaysian Sports Day in NTU. Even if I do not go for the MSD, there is Welfare meeting + photoshooting at 11am. Why can't those people inform about meeting date and time earlier? Did not expect myself to have missed so many BP-Mentoring sessions when I agreed to join a team in MSD, but now, it becomes the last thing I want to go for.

I give all my time to Chinese Debate but I am not even going for 亚太 in July due to some personal reasons. The diary sponsorships by the department I in-charge is more or less settled. Hopefully they submit their design on time but we don't seem to have enough sponsors yet. There are just too many people doing one thing and only a few know about the important information, which makes things really inefficient. Preparation for UFO 8 has started, but not too hectic yet, at least for my part. Then something happened, a friend was hurt, and I did not know about it until two weeks later though I was one of the main causes of it.
Totally forgot about studying. I came back from Penang on Sunday afternoon and spent an average of 1 day to study for each subject. One more paper on coming Monday. Critical Thinking and Writing just makes you hate life.


I am sorry for always complaining here. Going back to work now.

心机

这个男人

心机怎么那么重

然后还要被我发现

哼！

果然日久见人心

你烦不烦

最近很烦

连我自己都觉得自己很烦

什么情况

看什么事都不爽不顺眼

那天去吃火锅

我们人太多

服务员就把桌子加很长长

结果我们要坐在人家走来走去的地方

我就很不爽

那天打比赛

下来人家就说打得不错

每次打比赛下来都听到同样的话

‘不错’到底是什么意思

至少也告诉我什么不对的东西

自己就那边不爽

那天我打电话给你

我知道你忙

但我又不是在讲跟你没有关系的废话

为什么你要让我那么的

不爽

MA1506  notes

看到你 我就只看到一堆符号

在我眼前飘来飘去

你可不可以讲一些人话？

还有IRO

我十点打电话给你

为什么人会不在！

还有还有

我竟然被人家当成情敌

我连发呆都没有时间

不会得空去喜欢一个人好不好

所以我这两个礼拜

就一直在为这些大大小小

不管有没有人错的事情

自己在那边不爽

然后全世界都很忙

烦还是不烦都没有人会理你

还是自己疼自己吧！

忙!

生活最近是想忙死我啊

现在感觉Sem 1 简直是天堂

End of week 4

So week 4 is ending soon and I just started to take out my notes to study today! Seriously can feel the stress now. But seems like everybody is also very stressed recently, I can't really find someone to talk to.
Should I bring my CTW assignment home so that I can write my critique during CNY? Lol...


And to my dear MLE1101 lecturer, what the heck are you talking about?! I need to replay the webcast 2 or 3 times before I can catch what you are saying.

ISN 2013

After three months of preparation, we were on stage for five minutes and everything has just ended.
In order to convince us to participate in Infusion 2013, seniors told us that it would be very fun. I believed in it but the it turned out to be a lot more than just 'fun'. We got really closed to one another and I am already used to seeing all of you at the ping pong area from 8 to 11pm on Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays. I miss your laughters.

There were hard times. We went for the first audition and seniors were unhappy with our performance but everything was so awesome during the real show. We spent hours and hours making the costumes and everything looked really ugly at first but everyone looked great yesterday. Philip went missing last minute but Bojun and Geoffrey managed to learnt all the steps in such a short period of time and replaced him. Thank you Bojun and Geoffrey, for what you have done. These two guys are just amazing!


There are so many things about the whole Infusion team worth to be recorded. These memories will stay in my heart forever, for it is the greatest experience I have in NUS so far. <3 p="">

Sometimes, I actually hate talking
When I have to be so careful with every single word that I am saying
and have to try so hard to find out the hidden meaning of others' words.


Argh! I am getting frustrated really easily nowadays.
And people that I want to talk to never really show any concern.
Ok I should not be bothered by all these little little things
Everyone is busy with their own life
so I should carry on with mine too.

有很多事 知道了不好

很多话想说

但不能说

很多事情想问

但问不出口

很多东西想解释

但可能会越弄越糟

你到底要我怎样！

功课跟不上了

CCA的东西没做好

心情很不好

可不可以不要去想那些怎么处理都处理不了的问题？

Don't open your book!

Had another really INTERESTING Critical Thinking and Writing class today!

My tutor was telling us about different types of claims like factual, value and policy claims. Liyang and Victor who were sitting next to me were busy copying all these different types of claims that he mentioned and I suddenly realised that all these are actually in our booklet. So I opened my book to find the pages with all the 'claims, reason, issue and etc'. Being such a busybody, I then tapped Liyang to show him that it's inside. After that I turn to the other side and did the same thing to Victor.

I think I didn't even manage to tell Victor what I wanted to tell before my tutor started saying, 'Zhi Xin, if I want you to open the book, I will tell you. And when you were busy talking to Liyang, you did not answer my question.'

I have not been scolded by a teacher in class for like years. I was kinda embarrassed but felt a little bit funny also. It was like teacher catching some primary school kids for talking in class.

I apologised and he went on to ask, 'so, tell me who likes policy claims.'
'Politician?'
'Why?'
Then I started bluffing about something and he kept on asking 'and then?' and 'and then?' until I think he was happy. Haha...but luckily I my answers did make sense to some extent (I think).

So basically this is what happened during today's class. Oh, now I know how it feels like when being scolded by  teacher when you are 20.

Zzzz

Feel like sleeping all the time.

I am so gonna become a pig in my next life!

First CTW class

Had a really stressful Critical Thinking and Writing class this morning. Once I entered the classroom with my cup of coffee from Dilys, my teacher immediately said, 'No coffee in class. That's the university rule.' For the first time in uni I felt like I am back to primary school. Then there were quite a few other people who came in  with food or drinks and got scolded.
I don't hate him la. Cauz having such a strict tutor actually kept me awake for the whole of two hours. I would have fallen asleep otherwise. Just that I was expecting a relaxed and fun CTW  class when I first saw that my tutor was a Caucasian.
So I have no choice but to work hard for my CTW and really prepare for every class.

Btw I am taking Principles of Economics this semester and Mr Hussain's face kept appearing in my mind during Econs lectures. Lol...

又一个疯狂的夜晚

又是一个疯狂的夜晚

很庆幸这群人出现在我生命中

只是很抱歉

当大家都在如此坦诚诉说过往的时候

我依然无法不继续保护自己

但我一直是个很幸福的人

这是真的

我要去槟城了

我和殷硕会跟着德辩队伍去槟城

开始时是想 没被选去打比赛

跟着去学习也很好

现在依然是这么想的

只是收到邮件说确定要去的时候

突然感觉很压力

可能之前受过一些训练

刚入队时大家会说新生当中我的风格明显比较成熟

渐渐地看见大家开始进步了

我却发现自己还跟以前一样

debate trip 的录像我都不敢看

怕看见自己在台上那么丑

一直觉得自己已经没有很想辩论的感觉了

不知道是因为没感觉所以越打越烂

还是只是不知道自己要怎么进步

害怕自己在辩论队待多一两年后还停留在现在这个样子

德辩在recess week

应该就没时间准备期中考了

但我也不在乎了

谁叫我想跟大家去德辩

明天infusion audition

今晚没办法去辩论队训练

真的很希望很希望我们可以在Infusion 跳得很漂亮

也很想很想帮新国大在德辩有好的表现

也害怕自己没有First Class Honour

哈哈

也许Second-Upper 也 ok

First Post of the Semester

It feels like I have done a lot of things but today is only WEDNESDAY!!! Why is this week so freaking long! Don't worry, I don't hate school that much anymore, maybe it's because it's just the start of the semester. I can still drag myself out of my bed for the 8am lectures for the past two days. As usual, I go for classes with Jiwon and Zhong Sheng and spend my hostel life with the Malaysians.

MSL and AMCISA are now busy preparing for Infusion. Hope everything goes well in the end. After four  five years of staying in Singapore, I still feel more comfortable mixing around with Malaysians. Don't get me wrong, Jw Zs and I are happy with each other but it just feels like there is still a barrier among us. A Korean, a Malaysian and a Singaporean. Really need to put in some effort to overcome the cultural barrier right?!

Time to go for Infusion practice. 

Looking forward to our outing to Swensens tomorrow! :)

Les Miserables - On my own

This song makes me emo but I love it!