Lunch

My lunch today

Maggi curry + egg

I don't know why it looks so ugly here

but it was nice

especially the half-cooked egg yolk

Haha...sorry I am quite bored, so I will just post any random stuff in my life for these few weeks.

9 days to As!

电话号码

有些号码

可以从手机里删了

但却记在心里了

比如

我家的电话号码

Organic Chem Textbook

Studying H3 today

When I get bored I like doing this to my book

I like colourful textbooks

And I am gonna let this book stay with me until forever :)

10 days left!

暴风雨前夕

这两天很平静

我知道要考试了

可能这就是暴风雨前夕的平静

只剩下11 天的时间了

但是我睡得还算安稳

还没有失眠的情况

心情也很平静

我喜欢坐在宿舍的Dining hall

特别是周日的早上

或是周五周六的一整天

那群活泼的小孩子不会在我周围大吵大闹

不喜欢他们在宿舍吵

主要是因为那让我无法专心做该做的事

可能也是因为有点不甘

自己回不去那些跟一群朋友一起笑得乱七八糟的日子

重点是

要考试了

我开始学会把它看成是我一生的一小部分

（但我不得不承认我依然很在乎）

也发现了它就是我在新加坡这四年的一个总结

对。。。四年的日子就这样过去了

还很清晰地记得在循中上课的最后一天

站在教室外面对着宝羚沈渊哭

我偶尔还会怀恋那D101教室

人应该向前看的

暂时还看不见远方的什么

但是讲义就在我面前

该去看了

Have a nice weekend! :)

不要跟我讲福建话

今天中午坐在宿舍的一个pantry读书

不久后一个打扫清洁的安娣就推着装了各种肥皂、抹布etc  etc 的推车走来

因为之前看她在另一个pantry拖地

为了不要挡着她工作

我就问：“安娣，你是不是要抹地？”

准备收拾东西离开

安娣就开始“#%$%^@&%^$$#@#2”，说了一堆我听不懂的福建话

最后说了两句“抹好了，早就抹好了！（还是福建话，不过我听懂）”

还好听懂了这两句（应该只有这两句有在回答我问题）

我跟安娣微笑点点头，“噢”了两声，继续看我的书

安娣好像发现了我不是很懂她在讲什么

后来就开始用中文跟我聊

问我熨斗是不是没有关电，怎么好像有个味道（其实已经关了）

又问我掉在地上的纸写些什么 （写着烘干机不能用）

最后安娣擦完了桌子要推着她的车走了

走前她跟我讲：“等下你写完字之后记得off the light ho。”

这安娣真是trilingual…

我现在闷得快疯了

其实很多事要做

很多书要读

不过我现在看到那一叠叠的纸就想睡觉

就趁这个机会在这里跟大家讲一声

会讲中文或英文的话就请不要跟我讲福建话

我只会面无表情地看着你

回去读书  :)

一个人

一个人拿着杯珍珠奶茶在街上漫无目的地走着

其实很好玩

今天原本是在图书馆读书的

结果不知是因为感冒还是什么一直无法专心

六点多就离开了

之后就在bugis到处乱逛

虽然伤风伤得我头有少少的痛

鼻子又红眼又肿

独自一个人走在街上可能看起来就像个失恋的女人

管那些谁怎么想

看着一个个陌生的脸从我身边经过

还有那些装潢很漂亮但没什么生意的店铺

当时有点希望自己可以一直这样一个人地走着

后来心情突然变得很好

不过我依然希望

那个突然不回我短讯的人

明天走在路上被狗追

然后撞到电灯柱

再掉进满是青蛙的沟渠里

能忍则忍

I am thankful that my parents have taught me well, to be polite even when facing those rude and inconsiderate people. When I feel like being vulgar to them, I can still SMILE at them.

I love GP

I went for consultation with my GP tutor this morning. It was my first formal consultation with a teacher since I enter JC. Er…no…First formal consultation in my life actually. Because of my terrible GP results, my GP tutor did ask to go through some essay questions with me when she came to my boarding school during some weekends. But we ended up talking more about some other random stuff rather than GP.

I actually signed up for today’s consultation with Xiaojun but she decided to abandon me and go for Economics lesson instead. So I was alone with Ms Khoo. Then we started going through my two essay plans. For the first one which I spent one hour preparing, I think she felt that I was writing mostly irrelevant stuff and my approach was like ‘wrong’. So we were redoing that question. Hmm…guess what…our final approach for that question was just the same as my initial way of answering it. But to her (or maybe to any GP teachers), they are different. That is also why I could never score well for GP.

For the second essay, I didn’t dare to show her my plan because I did not want to see the ‘oh no, she is hopeless’ face again. So I was telling her why educational qualifications are reliable or unreliable in measuring a person’s true abilities. Luckily she did not show me the disappointing face anymore.

Yeah….GP I love you. 

让我埋怨一下

刚刚问妆玟如果她突然跟她妈说不想上大学了
她妈妈会有什么反应
妆玟说她应该会蛮ok的
反正她以后要做的事情跟上不上大学没什么关系


其实我会问她那么奇怪的一个问题
是因为我这几天一直在想我到底要做什么
更是发现了我真的不喜欢读书
我没有那种‘求知欲’
我一直都在读是因为我必须读
因为没有办法想象不好好读的后果
我应该承受不起

三星期后就开始考试了
在宿舍没法专心读
到外面去大部分时间我都在张白纸上乱涂鸦
真的不知道自己到底在做什么
其实没有考到自己想要的成绩  就不能活了吗？
上了什么著名大学就算是成功了吗？


好了
说完了
你们知道的
不管我埋怨了多少
我就是不会有那个勇气不去读的


所以叻
我妈应该不可能听到我很认真地说我不想上大学了

呵呵
恢复正常吧  芷欣

Ignore me

I was angry because I still care about it.
When I have no feeling towards anything anymore, it simply means that I don't care anymore.



Stop guessing what I mean.

Ponteng :P

Good morning. So I am 'sick' today. And I realise this place where I have been staying for 1.5 years is actually a prison.

If you are staying in my boarding school, when you are sick and are not going to school, you have to report to the office at 7.30am so they will know that you are sick. But I happily slept until 8am today.

If you do not report, a matron will come up to your room to check whether you are alive. They will know that you are still in the boarding school because you have to tap your card to get the doors open and to leave the hostel. Basically they can track your location at a specific time if you ever use your card to open a door. And there are doors everywhere in the boarding school!

So the Curtain Lady (her hair looks like curtain) came to my room when my friend called and told me that they would come and find me. And I was still wrapped in my blanket. 'Chew Zhi Xin, Chew Zhi Xin. It's 8.30am already. So how?' I felt like telling her, 'What so how? CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I AM SICK?' Looking 'sick' and sleepy, I told her, 'Erm...I am...sick.'

She didn't even ask me how I am feeling. Then she went on and said things like 'Do you know that you have to report at 7.30' and 'I give you a chance and you go and report now.' Hello, if people are really sick do you think they will be able to go down and report to you?! But interestingly, most people who are 'sick' do go down.

That's not the end of the story. You still have to get a medical certificate and submit it to the office. I thought it is only the teachers' duty to check MC. My friend said his friend 'died' because he didn't get a MC last time. To make sure that I will still be alive to enjoy my holiday after these 2 months, I decided not to take any risks.


Going to see doctor now. Bye!

生命不在于长短 而在于价值

周四放学回到宿舍  打开电脑

Facebook Newsfeed 出现无数个R.I.P Steve Jobs

一个传奇人物的离去总是那么的让人震惊

大家都说希望他R.I.P

但当你的名字或是你说过的话没五秒就被Copy & Paste 在Facebook 上

你还能Rest in Peace 吗？

抱歉Steve Jobs

我也在打扰你

因为我也像大家那么佩服你

主要不是因为你的Apple

而是你让我看见

生命不在于长短  而在于价值

It is Thursday again

It is Thursday again and tomorrow is a Friday.

I was like telling the world that I wanted to skip school today. Eventually, I woke up at 8.10am, stoned on my bed for 5 minutes and decided to go to school. School starts at 8.40am on Thursdays.

Joping didn’t go to school for two days and it was Xiaojun’s turn today. Joping and I had a good chat as we camped at the OAC store during Math lecture. After recharging herself at home for two days, she has really become more energetic. I always believe that it is useful to skip school for one or two days but an MC costs me $5 and it is just not worthwhile to spend $5 to buy one or two hours of sleep. And I am lazy to think of ways of explaining to the teacher about my absence. 

This period of preparing for A-levels is truly enjoyable, though I still hate having lessons and doing homework. I am glad to have a bunch of really nice friends around me. They may not be the nicest or the smartest people on the Earth, but they are good people who deserve to succeed in life. And somehow, I think we all look pretty in school uniform.

Another random and messy post. But life is never tidy and structured. Yup, so this is my life.

Timetable

Sometimes I wonder why do I always fail to follow my timetable, even if I allow myself to read only one topic in three hours. Now I realise it is because there is no sufficient time allocated for me to be emotional, happy or simply to stare at the ceiling thinking of who I am.

It is ok to allow myself to be lazy. At least I am not a robot.

Tomorrow will be another good day, no matter whether it is productive or not. =)

我想死啊！

从来没试过那么想杀了自己
打了那么多
结果不知发什么神经
手多按了Ctrl + W
然后当那个”Do you want to save your changes to the file" 跳出来的时候
我竟然按了"No"
真想杀了自己！