你烦不烦

最近很烦

连我自己都觉得自己很烦

什么情况

看什么事都不爽不顺眼

那天去吃火锅

我们人太多

服务员就把桌子加很长长

结果我们要坐在人家走来走去的地方

我就很不爽

那天打比赛

下来人家就说打得不错

每次打比赛下来都听到同样的话

‘不错’到底是什么意思

至少也告诉我什么不对的东西

自己就那边不爽

那天我打电话给你

我知道你忙

但我又不是在讲跟你没有关系的废话

为什么你要让我那么的

不爽

MA1506  notes

看到你 我就只看到一堆符号

在我眼前飘来飘去

你可不可以讲一些人话？

还有IRO

我十点打电话给你

为什么人会不在！

还有还有

我竟然被人家当成情敌

我连发呆都没有时间

不会得空去喜欢一个人好不好

所以我这两个礼拜

就一直在为这些大大小小

不管有没有人错的事情

自己在那边不爽

然后全世界都很忙

烦还是不烦都没有人会理你

还是自己疼自己吧！

忙!

生活最近是想忙死我啊

现在感觉Sem 1 简直是天堂

End of week 4

So week 4 is ending soon and I just started to take out my notes to study today! Seriously can feel the stress now. But seems like everybody is also very stressed recently, I can't really find someone to talk to.
Should I bring my CTW assignment home so that I can write my critique during CNY? Lol...


And to my dear MLE1101 lecturer, what the heck are you talking about?! I need to replay the webcast 2 or 3 times before I can catch what you are saying.

ISN 2013

After three months of preparation, we were on stage for five minutes and everything has just ended.
In order to convince us to participate in Infusion 2013, seniors told us that it would be very fun. I believed in it but the it turned out to be a lot more than just 'fun'. We got really closed to one another and I am already used to seeing all of you at the ping pong area from 8 to 11pm on Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays. I miss your laughters.

There were hard times. We went for the first audition and seniors were unhappy with our performance but everything was so awesome during the real show. We spent hours and hours making the costumes and everything looked really ugly at first but everyone looked great yesterday. Philip went missing last minute but Bojun and Geoffrey managed to learnt all the steps in such a short period of time and replaced him. Thank you Bojun and Geoffrey, for what you have done. These two guys are just amazing!


There are so many things about the whole Infusion team worth to be recorded. These memories will stay in my heart forever, for it is the greatest experience I have in NUS so far. <3 p="">

Sometimes, I actually hate talking
When I have to be so careful with every single word that I am saying
and have to try so hard to find out the hidden meaning of others' words.


Argh! I am getting frustrated really easily nowadays.
And people that I want to talk to never really show any concern.
Ok I should not be bothered by all these little little things
Everyone is busy with their own life
so I should carry on with mine too.

有很多事 知道了不好

很多话想说

但不能说

很多事情想问

但问不出口

很多东西想解释

但可能会越弄越糟

你到底要我怎样！

功课跟不上了

CCA的东西没做好

心情很不好

可不可以不要去想那些怎么处理都处理不了的问题？

Don't open your book!

Had another really INTERESTING Critical Thinking and Writing class today!

My tutor was telling us about different types of claims like factual, value and policy claims. Liyang and Victor who were sitting next to me were busy copying all these different types of claims that he mentioned and I suddenly realised that all these are actually in our booklet. So I opened my book to find the pages with all the 'claims, reason, issue and etc'. Being such a busybody, I then tapped Liyang to show him that it's inside. After that I turn to the other side and did the same thing to Victor.

I think I didn't even manage to tell Victor what I wanted to tell before my tutor started saying, 'Zhi Xin, if I want you to open the book, I will tell you. And when you were busy talking to Liyang, you did not answer my question.'

I have not been scolded by a teacher in class for like years. I was kinda embarrassed but felt a little bit funny also. It was like teacher catching some primary school kids for talking in class.

I apologised and he went on to ask, 'so, tell me who likes policy claims.'
'Politician?'
'Why?'
Then I started bluffing about something and he kept on asking 'and then?' and 'and then?' until I think he was happy. Haha...but luckily I my answers did make sense to some extent (I think).

So basically this is what happened during today's class. Oh, now I know how it feels like when being scolded by  teacher when you are 20.

Zzzz

Feel like sleeping all the time.

I am so gonna become a pig in my next life!

First CTW class

Had a really stressful Critical Thinking and Writing class this morning. Once I entered the classroom with my cup of coffee from Dilys, my teacher immediately said, 'No coffee in class. That's the university rule.' For the first time in uni I felt like I am back to primary school. Then there were quite a few other people who came in  with food or drinks and got scolded.
I don't hate him la. Cauz having such a strict tutor actually kept me awake for the whole of two hours. I would have fallen asleep otherwise. Just that I was expecting a relaxed and fun CTW  class when I first saw that my tutor was a Caucasian.
So I have no choice but to work hard for my CTW and really prepare for every class.

Btw I am taking Principles of Economics this semester and Mr Hussain's face kept appearing in my mind during Econs lectures. Lol...

又一个疯狂的夜晚

又是一个疯狂的夜晚

很庆幸这群人出现在我生命中

只是很抱歉

当大家都在如此坦诚诉说过往的时候

我依然无法不继续保护自己

但我一直是个很幸福的人

这是真的

我要去槟城了

我和殷硕会跟着德辩队伍去槟城

开始时是想 没被选去打比赛

跟着去学习也很好

现在依然是这么想的

只是收到邮件说确定要去的时候

突然感觉很压力

可能之前受过一些训练

刚入队时大家会说新生当中我的风格明显比较成熟

渐渐地看见大家开始进步了

我却发现自己还跟以前一样

debate trip 的录像我都不敢看

怕看见自己在台上那么丑

一直觉得自己已经没有很想辩论的感觉了

不知道是因为没感觉所以越打越烂

还是只是不知道自己要怎么进步

害怕自己在辩论队待多一两年后还停留在现在这个样子

德辩在recess week

应该就没时间准备期中考了

但我也不在乎了

谁叫我想跟大家去德辩

明天infusion audition

今晚没办法去辩论队训练

真的很希望很希望我们可以在Infusion 跳得很漂亮

也很想很想帮新国大在德辩有好的表现

也害怕自己没有First Class Honour

哈哈

也许Second-Upper 也 ok

First Post of the Semester

It feels like I have done a lot of things but today is only WEDNESDAY!!! Why is this week so freaking long! Don't worry, I don't hate school that much anymore, maybe it's because it's just the start of the semester. I can still drag myself out of my bed for the 8am lectures for the past two days. As usual, I go for classes with Jiwon and Zhong Sheng and spend my hostel life with the Malaysians.

MSL and AMCISA are now busy preparing for Infusion. Hope everything goes well in the end. After four  five years of staying in Singapore, I still feel more comfortable mixing around with Malaysians. Don't get me wrong, Jw Zs and I are happy with each other but it just feels like there is still a barrier among us. A Korean, a Malaysian and a Singaporean. Really need to put in some effort to overcome the cultural barrier right?!

Time to go for Infusion practice. 

Looking forward to our outing to Swensens tomorrow! :)

Les Miserables - On my own

This song makes me emo but I love it!

20岁

假设我能活到80岁

今天就算是已走过了人生的四分之一

20岁以前 

有欢乐 也有遗憾  但我觉得充实 没有后悔

20 岁以前

曾经被誉为名列前茅的好学生

也曾经被指去参加学校的学习加强班

曾经经常有上台获奖的机会

也曾经在众目睽睽之下在台上跌倒

埋怨过自己生长的环境

也理解到若生在不同的环境 我也不是今天的我

梦想过去剑桥念医科

然后到新国大走了化学工程师的路

曾经以为朋友会一直都在

后来也发现什么事都需要用心经营

曾经是个很叛逆的孩子

现在开始学习体谅 学习孝顺

曾经觉得自己会是个很好的女朋友

后来也发现自己根本不是很懂爱情是怎么一回事

曾经觉得自己是个好人

后来发现凡事都先为他人着想原来很难

20岁以前

认识了三几个知己好友

只到过三个国家

曾经很渴望当个独中生  然后当成了

曾很突然地到新加坡当个看起来很厉害的奖学金得主

曾在上课时找藉口溜出教室去玩

曾经顶撞过老师

为了到有下雪的国家留学努力过  也失败过

谈过一次很简单的恋爱

追求过一段没得到的爱情

还没有经历过真正的失败

也没有过什么特别大的成就

我人生的前20年 就是这样

不期望接下来的几个20年一切顺利

只希望自己能坦然面对一些欢笑与泪水

Release of results - Year 1 Sem 1

The results were really surprising.
I was expecting something within the second-lower class range and it turned out way better than expected. I did not set a target too high for myself, considering that I was actually either watching drama or complaining about life on Blogger when others were busy studying. But it is not that I did not study at all. I did put in effort, but it's just not good enough for me to get these grades.

Ok, I made it sound like I have gotten CAP 5.0. Haha...for those who are curious, it is just somewhere second-upper. As I have said, my aim for this semester wasn't too high, and so I am very happy with the results and I have been really very lucky.

Most probably I won't be as lucky next sem. Shall stop complaining about life and study hard!