不知道是不是因为太久没上课

开始觉得生活太无聊

也让自己有了太多胡思乱想的时间

总觉得自己越来越不像原本的那样

根本搞不清楚自己在做些什么

从前为自己定下的原则竟然都没有了

一直觉得自己是个蛮理智的人

才知道  在一些事情面前

就算知道自己的做法很不理智

我也会说服自己说

不大胆尝试怎么知道结果如何

我是不是真的能够
不在乎天场地久
只在乎曾经拥有

Email

It was always something to be happy about when I check my email inbox and saw nothing new from teachers or CCA. An email would most likely mean more work to do more things to settle. I hated checking email.

For the past few days, the first thing I did after turning off my alarm in the morning was checking my mailbox. And whenever there is wifi available, I would check on my phone every now and then to see whether any new email come in. I remember I was so excited when I saw notification about new emails this morning then I felt the disappointment when those were not the emails I was waiting for.

Yes I am getting worried. My results were satisfying (I guess) but when almost all my friends who applied for the same course as me have received their offers, I am still staring blindly at my phone screen. I checked through everything and nothing was wrong and YES I have submitted the application fee.

Okay since you know and I know there is nothing that I can do now so I will just wait and check my mailbox.

All the best to everyone who are applying for unis and/or scholarships.


And btw, I am having fun at work.

Haha...a short thank you speech

I am really thankful for everything that happened in these few days, especially when knowing that there was a bunch of people who were happy for me, from their hearts．

'I was so happy for you when I saw your name on the screen.' These words from a friend's mouth was more touching than knowing that you have gotten the results you want.

Congratulations to all those who are happy with their results and hope everyone will stay positive and continue to strive for excellence in life.

And thank you JP, your mum and sis for hosting me for my 3 days in Singapore.

10~11 让我开心的小小的事

1. 午餐能吃到‘菜饭’摊的荷包蛋
2. 在班上答对了老师的问题
3. 学校宣布Half day
4. CAFÉ 的小孩子全到
5. 跟Ms Chong 讲话不被她骂
6. 走在宿舍后面的住宅区吃冰淇淋
7. 吃晚餐时大家坐满一张桌子
8. 早餐可以吃炒饭/米粉
9. 周四的宵夜是donut
10. SP 骂我没塞衣服然后没有记我名
11. 体育节
12. 可以一躺下就睡着
13. 可以睡到自然醒
14. 王鹤儒切水果给张越吃
15. 在公园荡秋千
16. 一个人在街上走
17. Break curfew 没有被骂
18. 找到Movie Night 能播的DVD
19. 清洁安娣跟我讲早安
20.   洗衣机及烘干机正常操作
21. 跟大家在一起

Happy CNY

I love this long Chinese New Year holiday

We get to stay at home for as long as we want

Zw and Yc do not have to worry about the air tickets to go back Singapore

Daniel gets to go back Miri

and everyone gets to enjoy more of the Chinese New Year songs for at least more than one week

Anyway I will miss eating Yusheng with 10SH23

the CNY celebration in school

and of course the Angpao from Jp's mum

Still, I enjoy being home now! 

Happy CNY!

有时候

我觉得自己是幸福的

但是在更多的时候

我却讨厌这种幸福的感觉

让我在其他时候

感觉特别不幸福

Ok you can laugh at me now

今早起床

我写了封e-mail

内容大致是这样的

Mr Daniel Yew,

This is to inform you that I do not intend to proceed with my application to UK universities.

我看了很久

后来又改了

改成了

May I know if it is too late if I submit my UCAS application in these two days?

下午

我收到的回复是

Yes, you may submit your application within these two days

我感谢今早的自己

没有因为害怕后果

而放弃申请

事情是这样的

UCAS deadline 是15/1

但学校给我们UCAS Application 的截止日期是8/12

那时我就玩啊玩

心想着UK也没scholarships

也不想写Personal Statement

所以就不管了

前两天

一个朋友就说了又劝

劝了又说

搞得我又有点害怕自己后悔

所以就继续申请了

昨晚睡前又想了很久

现在才交应该会被骂死

而且负责老师是Ms Shawna Lim （我很喜欢的一个老师）

可能Testimonial也遭殃

所以为了顾全大局

还是不申请吧

所以我今早写了那封email

其实我现在还在写Personal Statement

这一整天

除了开心

就只有感激

开心

是因为以为被判了死刑

但却被给了个努力的机会

感激

老师的那句虽短却意义重大的回复

也谢谢当时在线跟我分享这喜悦的ZW

回去写Statement 了

不然就白开心一场了

Bye UK

Ok I am a failure

really wanted to go UK

but I am not even applying

When people ask 'why', maybe I will say 'there's no scholarships'

but the real reason is

I missed the school deadline to submit UCAS application

and I am lazy to go through the process of getting scolded for not doing things before the deadline bla bla bla

so bye bye UK...

I googled how to get rid of this

Ok I am a bad person

I am sorry

Really want to write it here

but I CAN'T

because people read this!

Anyway I am still nice for not writing it here

Please go away...

Give me a peaceful christmas

Google doesn't help.

Random

失去了原来从来不属于自己的东西

竟然也会如此难过

Move on, move on....

Morning without the smell of NJ

Woke up in the morning

I thought I would hear someone cutting the grass outside my room

and cleaners cleaning the toilet

When I turn to my right

I would see Zhang Yue's blanket and her Pooh bear

That's how I woke up in weekends' mornings

Then, I opened my eyes

and saw my room at home.

I will never go back to the room 204 anymore.

Happy Holiday everyone!

End of a 4-Year-Chapter

I am Home!!!

There are so many things to update here but I am really lazy now.

Life in Singapore ends with wonderful memories with 10SH23.

Will definitely miss you guys!

过了重重难关之后

先是要说

我考完试了

不算完全考完

就剩下周的两张选择题

一直期待着今天的4.30pm

当学校TF11时钟指着4点半的时候

也表示A level Pharm Chem 将从此离开我的生活

它像是一颗很重很重的石头压了在我身上一年

有时还会因为它担心得睡不着

我不会在这里写说考试考得怎么样

不想去回忆

不想去知道

直到成绩放榜的那一天

考完不久之后

一个H3同学打电话来问我

"Hey do you want to BURN YOUR NOTES?"

我就开始狂笑

还是第一次听人那么认真地问这个问题

可见这科目给大家造成了多大的压力

但我没有后悔

我是真的感兴趣

只是考试总是考不好

也很庆幸有一群有点神经质的朋友

考前十五分钟竟然在考场外像疯子那样

笑得乱七八糟

上课的时候也经常那样

虽然我经常说自己不喜欢新加坡

ok...我依然没有很喜欢新加坡

但我觉得今年的我很幸福

没有什么理由

就是种感觉

虽然还是有不如意的时候

但是整体上来说是很快乐的一年

主要应该是因为出现在身边的人

真的很感激他们的存在

再写就不知道要写到哪里去了

今天要好好休息

祝我好运

真的很害怕

从昨天考完Physics 到现在

心情完全没有平复过

要考H3

才发现自己真的很害怕失败

我真的特别特别希望能考好这一科

111111

Finished 5 papers

8 more to go! 

Jiayou!