Memories

Some things just can't be explained

Don't ask me why, please

I just hope that everything will be ok in the end

Everything has become part of our memories

还有几个六年半？

搭飞机走了  我的那个朋友

那个记忆中坐在我左前方的朋友

那个拿我学会 collar pin 玩的朋友

对他的印象就只有这些

六年半没见面了

最后一次见面的时候  竟然没有道别

但他一直存在着

他出国  是件很久以前就知道会发生的事

所以  现在当然不会有特别的不舍或是伤感还是什么的

只是偶尔会想知道

下次见面会是在几个六年半之后？

领成绩风波

最近班上不少同学都在议论着这样一件事

我们班有个成绩特别好的男生

各科成绩在全校前五名的名单内肯定能找到他的名字

这同学最得意的科目应该就是化学吧

所以一直以来他都把目标设在成为全级化学成绩最佳的那一个

这次的考试

他的化学分数为88.5

全级最高的来自另一班

分数为89.5

所以我班的这同学拼了老命想找出可以让他多加一分的地方

听说还为自己没成为全级最佳而哭

他在班上哭的这件事就是重点

大家开始议论纷纷地说

都取得那么高分了，还难过什么，也不想想那些需要那一分来及格的同学

。。。。。。

所以结论是

当你成绩考得比别人好一些

不管你多难过

最好不要露出什么表情

笑  人家说你自满

哭  人家说你不体谅他人感受

其实我也觉得在这考试中考了88.5的高分

是真的没有必要哭

他哭的理由也确实很奇怪

但我更不认同的是那些在背后议论他的同学

人家为考试努力了那么久

拿到成绩时要有什么心情还要由你来决定？

每个人在不同方面对自己的要求都不一样

可能他付出了应该要成为全级最佳的努力

但没有得到同等的回报

所以他难过

就像每一个同学考试没考好

然后觉得难过的一样难过

这个时候

我们又有什么资格

以自己的标准

去帮人家决定他们应该要有什么感受？

Some sort of disappointment

It was sad that I failed to wake the sleeping people up during the presentation

One year ago, in the speech competition

one of the contestants who was playing with her phone throughout

looked up at me on the stage when I started talking

The feeling was good

and it gave me confidence to continue with my speech

A few weeks after that

during the EXCO election speech day

the teacher who was busy marking his students' work when people were speaking

did the same as the contestant above when I spoke

During PW oral presentation

the audience who were sleeping woke up when it was my turn to present

I am not sure whether these people just happened to lift up their heads 

or they were really being attracted by what I said

but I was vain enough to feel good about myself when I saw their eyes on me

Today

during the physics presentation in class

there were people who were already sleeping before our group's presentation

and we were the only group that did not use a powerpoint to present

so everything just seemed boring (it was really boring perhaps)

the first time when it was my turn to speak

I was hoping that I could do some magic to wake those people up

but apparently I failed

then I passed on the time to my groupmates

I was kind of frustrated

as people were just talking and some sleeping during the presentation (I am really thankful for the rest who at least showed that they were listening)

after a while, the teacher woke those who were sleeping up

it was really embarrassing for the presenters

and you know why

at last, it was my turn again

I did my best

but only managed to stop some people from talking

and did not have much impacts on those who were falling asleep

I am not like a very talented person

so I always expect people to at least listen to me when I speak at the front

It is just disappointing when you are not doing well in something, or most probably the only thing that you are better at.

Resonance 2011

In physics, resonance is the tendency of a system to oscillate with larger amplitude at some frequencies than at others. These are known as the system's resonant frequencies. At these frequencies, even small periodic driving forces can produce large amplitude oscillations, because the system stores vibrational energy. -- Wikipedia


Couldn't really come out with the definiton of 'Resonance' by myself, so I searched for it from the net.
The definition above shows how well our concert was named. The name 'Resonance' was suggested by Yijie if I remember correctly. It totally reflects the dynamic of our class, 10SH23, especially the part of 'even small periodic driving force can produce large amplitude oscillation'.

I would say the 'small periodic driving force' comes from our dearest personal mentor, Miss Lim Wei Li, a young and enthusiastic lady. Somehow, in those crucial few days of preparing for the concert, everyone in the class came to the same frequency and resonance was achieved. Then everyone put in his/her best and brought the concert towards great success (large amplitude oscillation).


On Tuesday, the school announced banning of all concerts in Term 3. After talking to Mr Yeo, the VP for a few times, Miss Lim finally said that the concert could proceed on Wednesday morning. I felt relieved but at the same time I was really afraid that we would not be able to get everything done in two days time.


The Saturday before the concert was our very first tech-run. On Friday afternoon, we suddenly found out that the PA crew were not really informed of the rehearsal and the SOP was to register at least one week before we need them to come. I am really grateful that they were willing to send their crew to help despite the last minute registration (90% of it was because we had Qian Ying in our class....haha...:)


Now I am lazy to go through all the details here. Anyway, we had our 2nd and 3rd  rehearsal and finally the concert ended beautifully. The whole process of preparing for Resonance 2011 was exciting and tiring, especially during the last few days (or the only few days).

I am really thankful that I am in NJ and in this special class with special people. I believe that 10 years later, when we think about our JC life, we will see these happy faces of ourselves and our classmates.

Define 'TRUE'

You know why things are just so unbearable for you?

It is because you have always been expecting

or hoping that people will not do well

So you get frustrated

when you don't do better than them

When you keep saying that there are no 'true friends' around you

Have you ever asked yourself whether you have been 'true' to your friends?

If yes, you should, at least, feel happy when things go well for them

and not what your actions show right now.

who am I?

我竟然

变得

如此

现实

There were a lot of miscommunications

I admit that I was partly at fault

when i first knew about what they have said

the first thing i told myself was not to offend anyone

and the reason was because we still need their help

months ago

i remember telling my junior to have good relationship with everyone

because he would need them to get things done in the future

so now

my only reason for being good to the others

is to ensure that i will get what I want either now or in the future?

打败仗了

Common Test 2011 就这样结束了

今后再也没有Common Test 这回事了

上礼拜三还跟朋友说，很快的很快的，一个星期很快就会过去的

真的是很快 真的就考完了

一直都蛮期待这次考试的

从年头就告诉自己

去年没有考好的 这次考试都要考好

但老实说 我却没有非常的努力

GP 跟 Economics

应该只花了一个星期多的时间准备

说服了自己要带着满满的信心进考场

但看见了题目我就觉得信心是没有用的

Physics 跟 Maths 没有特别好

但也不是最烂的

反而是Chemistry

考完就有想倒在地上哭的感觉

不知道为什么是‘倒在地上’

反正就是对自己彻底失望

Pharmaceautical Chemistry

让我最紧张的一科

是我从来就考不好

但也一直都很在意的一科

考试前就知道老师不会那么善良

离开宿舍前

我：张越，掰掰，我要去打仗了。

越：加油啊，芷欣！你一定可以打胜仗的！

我：我不要被杀死就好了，不敢奢望打胜仗。。。哈哈！

回到宿舍后

越：嗨，芷欣！考完了啊？

我：对，考完了！伤势惨重，刚是被抬回来的。

越：。。。

所以啊

我就是打败仗了

原谅我那么直接

但我不想为了维持良好关系而隐瞒我对你的不认同

考完试再让我慢慢思考这个问题

谢谢你

让我每晚都笑着入睡

清晨也笑着睁开眼

My holiday

The past few days in KL was fun
I brought my work and everything is still blank now
I am already counting down to the next holiday
when I can sit around a table with friends and just talk about random stuff

I think I am a bit disappointed as I didn't have the chance to meet up with a friend that I was supposed to meet
so we will just wait for the day when we accidentally bump into each other on the street or something
hope you will enjoy studying in Australia
just remember to say bye to me when you are leaving :)

Perhaps it would be more fun if another friend did not leave halfway
Wanted to ask him to stay
but he already had a plan with his friends
so there wasn't much I could do..

anyway
thank you everyone for making my KL trip wonderful

now I have to start studying :(

You raise me up... to more than I can be

Start of holiday

Holiday has started

Not exactly a holiday

More like a study break

But it is still better than having to wake up at 7am everyday

and most importantly

I am going home!

Nothing much attractive about my home actually

but sometimes you just want to escape from where you live currently :)

Monday was Joping's birthday

For those who do not know

The short hair one is Joping

The one in black is Xiaojun

Hope she is happy with the presents we gave her

And the family fondue at Andersen was nice

though Xiaojun wanted to vomit after eating it...

It's really wonderful to have friends to celebrate birthday for you.. :)

Class CIP

I would say it is going on well

hope the concert will really happen in the end

Many people have put in a lot of effort

And I believe the rest will also

contribute in their own ways

Actually I really love 10SH23

even though every single person is 'not like other normal people'

Welfare Committee

I have not been talking about it since long time ago

Finally i have told the teacher what I think

And there will be no Welfare Committee anymore

It is not necessary to get a group of people to try doing things that will never be approved by school

Perhaps it was because I am too lousy

so nothing could get approved..

COGZ exco interview was interesting

Some elects were really boring

But some were really funny

But I hate it when the teachers just want to have a say in anything

We have shortlisted a group of people

Then they put some of them under 'pending'

simply because they have not really noticed them

And some of those we have eliminated

They want them to get into the second round

simply because they are their students

There wasn't a need for us to interview them

when the teachers already have in mind who they want...

whatever

I have learnt not to care so much

and I am not complaining to any of my fellow excos.

Should be focusing on studying since it is a 'study break'

I am one day behind the schedule I planned

meeting Xiaojun later

CIP discussion tomorrow

meering Yeeching on Saturday

and going home on Sunday

Happy Studying! :)

I am tired

Tired of trying to find out what I want to be in the future

Tired of reminding myself that I am not qualified for the course I want for most universities because of I decision randomly made by my secondary school VP

Tired of knowing that I did extremely badly for gp ad econs

Tired of planning to study the remaining subjects

Tired of waiting for reply from NUH

Tired of guessing what the person is thinking

Tired of having to smile at people who irritate me

Tired of listening to the band playing outside my window

Tired of feeling tired

我清楚地感受到了你的残忍

但在你拿起武器之前

能不能请你告诉我

是为什么

好让我死也死得明白一点