It's The End

I would feel much better if you could be more direct
instead of pretending like you were confused
and then tried to find some ways to tell me that I am actually the one who is confused

Yes I was confused
now I even believe that I was blind

It will just end here.

Good night Zhi Xin! Tomorrow will be a great day! :)

Random

I thought I had made a wise decision
Now I realised it was the most stupid thing I have ever done

and it also reminded me that whatever you have said to the others
there will be some days when someone says it to you
is it called karma? haha...



I shall do my Econs work now.

有没有你

这两个礼拜 其实过得还不错
虽然还是有很多问题要解决
很多烦恼要去理清
但我并没有讨厌这两个礼拜的生活

每天起床上学放学CCA吃饭为测验准备睡觉
这样的生活规律
让我发现
其实没有你，我也一样活得好好的

虽然我走在路上时偶尔会想起你
睡前可能会想一想我们现在是怎么样
早上喝着milo的时候会想起原来我不知道你喜欢喝什么

但在上课的时候 不会想到你
跟朋友在一起的时候 也不会特别希望有你的存在
做功课的时候也很少会回忆起我们曾经一起讨论功课

所以即使没有你
我还是可以过得好好的

只是可能有你有更好一些

Easiest way to survive

The easiest way to survive on the earth
is to be someone who shows no emotions
has no preference
and has no comments on anything

so that you don't have to make a choice when your friends are not ok with each other
you won't be a burden of anyone
you won't offend anyone on the earth

Now I understand why a lot of my classmates like to live in their own world
It is a survival skill

They Are Genius!

The Start of My 2011

This is the first post I write in Singapore since school started on 10 Jan.

I think I am getting used to SH2 life and that's why I manage to find some time to write something here

or maybe it's just that the schedule is not so busy for these few days.

The past 1 month has really been a long month

I remember after the first week of school had ended, it was as if one month had passed

CCA, homework and presentation

My sleeping hours decreased from 8 to less than 6 everyday

There was a day when I slept at 3am and almost fainted during PE lesson

Just almost, I didn't faint.

Thank you Annabel, Zw, Qy for 'taking care' of me and Jp for her chocolates :)

The subsequent weeks were slightly better

Tutorials, lectures and CCA as usual

H3 Chemistry lesson had also started

The first few lessons were fun

We were just pushing the electrons here and there

But the Stereochemistry test on 28 Jan was the worst thing ever

We didn't have any notes to study for it

and didn't know what to expect

except for the list of tested topics

So during the 2.5 hr test,

I had attempted all the questions in the first 1 hour

Obviously it was because I didn't know how to answer most of the questions

Then we received the Stereochem notes during the next lesson after the test

Anyway, I think I still enjoy H3 Chem

though I am getting blur in the class which consists of a number of Chem Olympiad students and some of the top students of the school

Don't think I will ever regret taking it. All the best, Chew Zhi Xin! :)

CCA is the one which takes up most of my time

Not because of the practices

but the planning and organising parts

I am going for Cafe programme every week to 'take care' of the JH1 kids

and take turns with my fellow EXCOs to oversee the JH practices

The worst part was planning for Cafe Try-out and CCA Fair

everything was very last minute

I am really glad that they are over

Coming up are recruitment, orientation, SYF, concert and bla bla bla

Ok..everything will be good

The most important thing, my studies

Although I am spending the least time on it after school as compared to other stuff

I still have to see it as the most important part of my life, as a student

so that I won't forget about it

I am always late to hand in Chem homework, since the start of the year

Don't think I am catching up with the class in Math

And can only understand part of those 'Field' Physics topics

My Econs teacher doesn't seem to like me

whenever he ask questions down the row he will just skip me and ask the person next to me

Anyway, there's nothing much I can do

GP, still the same standard

trying to force myself to read newspaper or magazines everyday

but it has not been happening since the day I set this target for myself

Class - I don't know whether I should say the class has become more bonded

or everyone has become excited/aggressive (do not know what word to use)

everyone had a lot of opinions on the class CIP

and everyone (k...some people) was 'fighting' with each other to defend their stands

Perhaps it's a good thing

At least the class no longer cares only about studies

We also care about CIP!

The rough plan for CIP has finally been decided

hope for no objections anymore fights in the future

Welfare Com - There is nothing much I want to talk about it

Perhaps I shouldn't blame anyone for not letting us to organise anything

It's such a failure because I am a failure

So I have changed our name to Movie Night Com

since we can only play movies with Ms Chan (not the school)'s resources

And we all agree that there shouldn't be anymore Welfare Com in NJCBS

Hopefully this year will be a better year

and I will be a nicer person

Ok..that's all

Apparently my summary fails

水灾

每年年尾的时候 总会听说哪里哪里水灾了

几乎每次的反应都大概是 ‘噢，那里水灾噢...'

得知今年柔佛水灾的消息 我的反应必须是 ’HUH? 水灾啊？！OMG！不要再下雨了！'

然后时时刻刻都注意着窗外还有没下雨

甚至还投Chocolate coin 问天我能不能回家过年

几位同学看出我对回家的渴望

也和我一样注意着天气

昨天早上终于看见了太阳

很开心的跑来告诉我说：“芷欣，没下雨了，水应该会退吧，你应该可以回家了吧！”

哈哈。。谢谢啦！

如chocolate coin所言 我回到家了

虽然要很不好意思地去麻烦个跟我也不懂是什么关系的uncle一家

但比留在宿舍过个没气氛的年还好一点吧！

希望火车路赶快修好

让我礼拜天能顺利回新

回来啦！

我又回到现实啦！

首先

这就是我今年的房间

我的房间

左边这一半是我的 右边室友还没回来

我的衣橱

暂时还算整齐的床

考试前我打仗的地方

现在已经够像打仗的了

这就是我接下来一年的窝

室友还是来自陕西的张越

周芷欣，面对现实吧！加油！

生日快乐

18枝蜡烛  18岁

虽然生于92年

但跟一群93年出生的同学久了

过了生日才大了一岁 感觉上舒服一点

不过18岁19岁也都一样

对于生日 似乎再也没有太大的期待

只是希望每年许的愿都能实现

好像是知道自己实力有限

才想指望那一年一个的愿望

对很多事情看开了

对一些事突然特别在乎

不知是不是人老了

看事情角度也不一样

想在生日前完成的事竟然没完成

但也在学着放开了

接下来 只希望18岁踏实顺利就好

冬至

一年下来那么多大日子

最喜欢的就是冬至

它不像新年那么多礼节

也不用特地穿得美美地 

嬉皮笑脸地跟人说新年快乐

也不像中秋节端午节

我只有吃月饼粽子的份

冬至可以在家自己搓汤圆

搓成怎么样也没关系

煮了吃了开心了就算

也不用到处去祝人冬至快乐

这种好日子

一年一次就好

才显珍贵

UEC

The results have been released

I am just feeling weird

Everyone is either very excited or sad over their results

and i am glancing through the facebook wall

'reading' their feelings

It is related to me and not related to me

when a friend shared his joy of getting marvelous results with me

I was and I am so happy as if it is my results

I think i sounded really dumb

you know when you get excited you do not know what to say besides thousands of 'Congrates!'

Then everyone goes on to choose their universities and plan for their future

Then i continue with my holiday assignment

and go to school in uniform for one more year!

I do feel young sometimes :)

算了吧

有个朋友说
一年之后就算了吧
真的要算了吗？

就算了吧！

原谅我语无伦次

I am so afraid that that would be the last gathering

该死的internet

有时有点讨厌叫internet的这东西
放假了 让我逃回家好好玩就好
偏偏有个叫internet的东西
让我找不到借口不做该做的事
每早醒来想到那两份还毫无头绪的proposal
我就想大喊一声


求CO赶快告诉我你们要表演什么
求老天告诉我纪念品要送什么
求NJ赶快批准明年的活动

YLTC

YLTC - Young Leaders Training Camp

第一天

抵达JB某个不知名的地方以后

先是design group flag

group 2 - VIP 整组十个人没有一个有艺术细胞

所以我们的flag就只有满满的hand prints

还有个大大的VIP

看起来是蛮不错的

午餐后 jungle trekking

我们背着所有的行李

走了三小时

各大小的水蛭从许多人身上吸了不少血

还好我的insect repellent 有尽情发挥功效

走了好久好久 -- 瀑布！

不是很大的瀑布 但水是真的清澈

之后当然还得继续走

走呀走呀走呀 三个小时过去了

大家都精疲力尽的时候

我们回到了原点

终点是我们启程的地方

无语。。。

我们被带到一块空地

搭帐篷

老实说 是我第一次搭帐篷

其实也没想像中那么复杂

接下来就是晚餐了

我们亲手煮的晚餐

我组有个叫zixin的男生 不是我 刚好名字听起来像

厨艺超好

只要他碰过的都很好吃

反正我们当天的晚餐就参杂了汗、沙、尘 etc

后来也没人拉肚子还是什么

看见那周围的厕所

大家都会自然的把尿啊粪啊都收回肚子

当然也没人想洗澡了

就这样

我们又黏又臭的

七个人挤在一个帐篷内

睡前还发生了一件事

lights-out时间应该是11.30pm

因为大家都很不自在

到了十二点都还在讨论要怎麽睡

结果Mr Irwan来了

让我们在十秒内冲出帐篷

stay in push-up position 听他训了好久好久的话

我感觉参加了个兵营

还好之后没有什么处罚

我们七个女生也一躺下就睡着了

第二天

physical training 就是跑了段距离 边跑边唱校歌

早餐nasi lemak+ 比较像糖水的kopi后

又开始了我们的trekking

这次走的是马路

马路很窄

每次一有车要经过

走在前或后的人都会开始喊

left left left / right right right

接着一整行的人都会跟着喊

走呀走呀走呀

我们一面走那群老师就不停驾车从我们身边经过 哼！

也走了很久

我们都相信要走两三个小时才会有巴士载我们去该去的地方

结果两辆巴士出现在我们面前

大家开始问（自己）：‘is that our bus?'......

然后我们都让自己相信老师们不会那么善良

再然后 就听到trainers说board the bus board the bus

终于 有了坐在椅子上的机会

怎么这么啰嗦

反正那巴士就是把我们载到了tanjung piai resort

住的地方就是搭在水上的那种高脚屋

午饭后 challenge village and tree climbing

challenge village 最难忘的是整组十个人手牵手走过立着的半圆轮胎

用点想象力吧

不知怎么解释

有一个人跌下来就要重新开始

我们试了好多好多次

失败了好多次

最后当然是成功整组过去了

之后就是各种爬呀穿啊平衡的活动

teamwork teamwork!!!

接着tree climbing

人生第一次爬树

那树干上是挖了些洞好让我们比较容易爬啦

但那洞小得连脚趾都放不进

所以是真的爬的很吃力

可是爬累了停在树上抱着树的感觉很好 嘿嘿

晚餐后是solo night walk

一个人走没有路灯的小路

不能用手电筒。。。

周围的萤火虫很美

一路上是蛮恐怖的

但我还是抬头挺胸地走完了

i knew i would be safe

走完后由于要等后面其他组的同学

先到的我们就躺在马路上

用背包枕着

有的睡觉

有的看星星

那天的月亮还不算圆

但很亮

地很暖

第三天

physical training 实在恐怖

jumping jack 100 counts of 8

不能停

每个人的动作还要一样

到一半有些人就开始喊什么

'ENDURE EVERYBODY ENDURE!'

'WE ARE ALMOST THERE' etc etc

做完以后真有种想哭的感觉

还没结束

接下来是双手向前举起

每人都得stay in this position for 不知多久

又是阵阵的'ENDURE' 'WE CAN DO IT!'

是真的endure完了

早餐后我们去跳海

jetty jump

就是从个平台跳下海

当然穿着救生衣

虽然很清楚自己不会死掉

但站在那台上还是真的很害怕

我也就很害怕地跳了两次海

活着爬了上来

也忘了这一天活动顺序是什么

就是后来过了种种难关

就是各种奇奇怪怪的过河方式

一不小心就是掉进水了

且那水中有的都只是泥巴

最后大家都又湿又脏的

后来是rafting

我们做的木筏有点不是很好嘿

在划的时候前面一根木松开了

哈哈

与其说是划船到对岸

不如说是半游泳过去的

之后还两组比赛谁比较脏

我们就把泥巴往脸往头都涂了

最后两组打成平手=.=

晚上对我来说是游戏时间

所有人只能用爬的

blind folded学猫叫狗叫找自己的组员

搞得大家满头大汗

还擦伤了脚

第四天3.45am就开始了

每组一人被绑架

组员要走很远很远找那’伤者‘

还要把他抬回起点

我组的伤者67kg

前一晚还吃那么多

抬了伤者还要去找我们的group flag

我们应该跑了10km

早上是paint ball

第一次拿起枪射人

跑到我面前跟我对射的竟然是我好朋友

最后我们都没射着对方

是我的脚被她的组员射到了

我死了

我组5人上场

2支枪坏了

全军覆没

都被杀死了

接着是survival skill

在野外生活

煮鸡蛋donut

搭篷挡雨

其实这一天蛮轻松的

晚上campfire

我组表演了个skit

我最怀念我们改词的那首christmas carol

On the first day of our camp this is what we did

hiking at no displacement

On the second day of our camp this is what we did

climb up a tree and hiking.....

On the third day of our camp this is what we did

jump build and row, climb up......

On the forth day of our camp this is what we did

campfire night, jump.....

On the last day of out camp this is what we did

balik kampung, campfire......

就大家都很high

debrief 前我们唱了首个给我们trainer

you are my sunshine

my only sunshine

you make me happy

when skies are grey

you will never know, dear

how much i love you

please don't take my sunshine away

debrief 后就睡觉了

我们的最后一晚